I didn’t really think about the emotional impact of traveling with my parents to place flowers on the graves of our passed-on loved ones when they asked if my daughter and I would like to ride along Sunday.
I also forgot that every time we pile into the car with my parents, something weird happens or the adventure becomes much longer than originally planned.
This trip was no different and there were a couple of times I thought we were going to be waiting for a mechanic.
When we started out on the journey, I heard my parents speaking in hushed tones.
“Should we even be driving this?” Mom asked.
What did that mean? Was something wrong with the car? Great. Just great. Now we were on a 20-mile journey in a car that might explode or something.
“What do you mean should we be driving it? Is this a problem that could leave us breaking down on the road, or leave us flying over an embankment into a tree?”
My questions were met with a silence that spoke volumes (harkening back to the days when I was a child and my parents decided there were things I didn’t need to know) so I started to pray.
Luckily the car problem never became an issue and Dad was able to get it fixed two days later (well, today as I am writing this).
My parents decided we would make the trip after lunch on Sunday, but lunch was late so our trip was late. By the time we arrived at the cemetery about 30 minutes from my parents’ house, it was almost golden hour, the time when the sunlight is the prettiest. I always feel guilty admiring the hundreds of flags dripped in golden sun spread out across a cemetery. It’s a solemn place, not an overlook. Still, the staff of the cemetery did a nice job again this year.
My dad and Little Miss planted flowers by my grandparents’ grave and then we stood there a few minutes, not sure what to do next.
“Sometimes when I come alone, I say a little prayer,” Dad said. “Or talk to them. Should we introduce Little Miss to them?”
Oh. Right. My grandparents were there. Under the ground. I should be focused on remembering them, but I’d stowed that emotion in the back of my head to simply make it through the day without getting weepy. Here it was, though, in my face.
So, I introduced my grandparents to Little Miss, and then, as I told Grandma how much she would have loved Grace, I started to cry. I wasn’t only remembering the time I had spent with her when she was alive, but the times I used to come and sit by her grave with a bag of black jelly beans, eating them and chatting along to her like she was still around (though feeling a bit dumb about it). Grandma loved black jelly beans but wasn’t supposed to eat them because the licorice was bad for her high blood pressure, I guess.
(Unnecessary explanation number five in this post: I talk to my grandmother because I knew her the longest. I was two when my grandfather died. I was in my mid-20s when my grandmother died and I lived with her part of that time.)
Stuffing our emotions back in, we headed back to the car and then drove around the other side of the cemetery to my aunt and uncle’s grave. This is my dad’s sister and her husband. Next to their grave, is the burial spot of a friend/neighbor of my dad’s and a cousin of my uncle’s — a decorated Vietnam War veteran who reminds my dad of the darker side of being a member of the United States Army. This man (first name Guy) was a sniper, was injured, earned a Purple Heart, and then was placed on duty to escort dead soldiers home from Vietnam. Guy killed himself in 1998 in the woods behind his house, a short drive from my parents’ house, we believe to stop the memories of all he’d seen.
After my dad planted flowers at his grave, and Little Miss and I had gone back to the car, Dad, a veteran of the United States Air Force, turned and faced Guy’s grave, saluting him in the respect he probably wasn’t given when he came home from war. The sight hit me hard in the chest and as I turned to tell my mom, who’d missed Dad’s salute, I broke down and she did as well. We were a bit of a blubbering mess for a few minutes.
With the tears behind us, Dad suggested a stop at a local ice cream place and that’s where things went off the rails. First, there was a huge line at the place, second, Dad accidentally left the lights and air conditioner on, so while he was waiting in line for the ice cream, the battery in his car died. This is where living in a smaller area comes in handy, because my dad looked to our left and the man in the next car was someone he knew.
Our family has also known the man’s wife for years. The two of them managed to get the car jumped but then another man walked by who knew Dad and Little Miss, Mom, and I sat there wondering if we would get home before 10 p.m. at that point. It turned out he was the brother of the woman we knew and he’d only recently moved back to the area after being away for probably 30 years.
We might not have known when or if we were going to get out of there, but we did know we weren’t going to make it to my Uncle Billy’s grave, at a different cemetery, that night, because the sun was setting fast. My parents ended up visiting his grave the following day.
While we were waiting for our ice cream, I told Little Miss, who wanted to go play around some tables, that we couldn’t go far because we would need to help Grandpa carry the ice cream.
“Hey!” a little boy with a buzzcut and a neon green shirt declared. “My Grandpa’s name is Grandpa too!”
All in all, the trip was a success, and we did make it home before 10, but not before dark. We let anyone who gets in the car with my parents know that they might want to plan for a longer trip than expected.
There is a good chance something weird will happen or Dad will want to take them on a tour of an area he is familiar with or once lived in. Either way, the trip is going to be longer, and often more interesting, than anyone expected.
7 thoughts on “A Memorial Day journey with my parents”
Bittersweet! Thanks for sharing your day-long journey with us. The idea of your dad saluting a fellow soldier warms my heart .❤️
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It was a sweet moment
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Your trips with your dad sound like a lot of fun! Reminds me of when my grandma was alive and living in Chinatown and knew literally everyone. Lunch with her was more meeting new people than actually eating. Reading about all your adventures living in a small town always makes me want to move to one. It’s been so long since I’ve lived somewhere where I actually see people regularly. Or maybe the pandemic just made me more of a homebody and I need to get out more, haha. According to older Chinese traditions, families are supposed to take a picnic to the cemetery to “dine” with the deceased, going as far as serving them food, so I think you having chats with your grandmother and eating jelly beans is so sweet. And a great reminder I should get back to cemeteries myself and spend some time with my grandparents. It’s always good for kids to learn where they come from.
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That tradition of eating with the deceased sounds like an interesting one. I think children should know where they came from as well. It’s nice that you were able to know your grandmother before she died and see how loved she was in Chinatown. ❤️
Memorial Day always makes me cry. I teared up at church just watching a video honoring those who died for our freedoms. It’s good that you took your Little Miss to help with the flowers. One day last year, our Little One wanted to go to the cemetery to see where her great-grandparents (my parents) were buried. I took photos of them along to show her as we read the names on their tombstones. Teaching them about the legacy of those who came before is a good thing.
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That was a great idea to take the photos along. I wish I had thought to do that!
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