I challenged myself this weekend by deciding I’d use a photo as the basis for a 300-word flash fiction piece idea. I challenged myself to make it 300 words, no more, no less. This was the photo:
And this is what came from my freeflow writing session:
Standing at the top of the stairs leading to the Catholic school next to the church the man froze, a cold chill shivering through him. He couldn’t do this. He didn’t want to do this. Continuing this farce was killing him. He pulled at the stiff, white collar around his neck. It was suffocating him, not physically, but in every other way.
“I want to be a priest.”
Had he really said that to his mother all those years ago?
Had her look of delight been the only reason he’d kept pushing forward, attended seminary, and was only a few hours away from being confirmed as a priest? He knew it wasn’t, but it was a big reason. He’d made a promise, to her, to himself, to God. But now, standing here, ready to walk into the reception hall where dinner was being held before the ceremony, he felt sick to his stomach.
He wanted to honor God, but did honoring God mean sacrificing all that God had created for man to enjoy?
Did honoring God mean sacrificing her?
He closed his eyes, drew in a deep breath, and let it out again.
He had made a commitment. A commitment to be married to Christ, to His will, and His direction for his life, not to his own human desires. As much as his heart and mind screamed at him to turn around, to not take one more step down those stairs, he knew he had to ignore them both.
To sacrifice was to be closer to God.
To sacrifice meant understanding Christ’s sacrifice more.
Isn’t this what God wanted? For him to understand Christ more so he could show Christ’s love better?
He took a step, heard her voice behind him, and stopped.