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Liam and Maddie Grant are set to sign divorce papers any day now. Liam is already packing to move out. Their plans are put on hold, though, when Liam comes home to tell Maddie he’s been exposed to a new virus that is shutting down the country and part of the world. Since he’s exposed her, she’ll have to be in quarantine as well. Now the couple is locked down for the next 14 days during which they will find themselves face to face with the issues that split them apart in the first place. Before quarantine is over they’ll have to decide if they want to sign divorce papers or try again.
Across the city, Liam’s brother United States Senator Matthew Grant is quarantined with his wife and children, wondering if his marriage could end up on the same path as his brothers. While stuck at home, Matt realizes he’s lost sight of what really matters since becoming a senator. He and his wife Cassidy have drifted apart, and he worries he has put his family at risk by serving as a senator during a hyper-political time for our nation.
Now he must decide if he wants to run for re-election, continuing to try to help his constituents, or walk away from the job that has brought his family stress and heartache.
Maddie Grant glared at her husband over the edge of a book as he pounded his fist against the wall by the living room window.
His voice was strained. “I can’t believe I have to self-quarantine. I don’t even have symptoms. This is absolutely ridiculous.”
Maddie couldn’t agree more. “Yeah, well I’m not thrilled with it either.”
Liam Grant’s eyes flashed with anger as he turned to face his wife, hands on his hips.
His jaw tightened as he spoke. “Yeah, I heard you. Believe me, I don’t want to be stuck here with you as much as you don’t want to be stuck here with me.”
She lifted the book higher, blocking her view of him. “We wouldn’t be stuck here if you hadn’t gone to that stupid political rally.”
“I went to that stupid political rally because it’s part of my job, Maddie. Remember what that is? A job.”
Maddie slapped the book closed, stood, and slammed the book on top of the coffee table as hard as she could. “I have a job, Liam. I’m a writer. Or don’t you remember the checks I’ve been putting into our bank account to help pay the bills? She walked past him toward the kitchen, but stopped abruptly, turned and looked at him through narrowed eyes. “Oh, that’s right. I forgot that you’re the only one making a difference in this world.”
He bristled at her bitter tone.
“Of course, I’m not. Clearly your romance novels are truly” he made quote symbols with his fingers. “world changing.” He turned away from her to look out the window again. “To lazy, pathetic housewives all over the world.”
Maddie’s hands ached as she tightened them into fists at her side, nails digging into her palms. Red spread slowly from her chest to her forehead as she stared at his back, every muscle in her body constricting with anger.
She pointed at his back aggressively. “If it wasn’t for you, we’d be divorced by now.” She snatched her phone off the coffee table. “I’m calling my lawyer and seeing if we can sign those papers electronically.”
“We can’t sign them electronically,” he snapped. “I already asked Art. We have to go over the settlement details before we can sign, and we have to do it in person.”
Maddie stood in the doorway between the living room and kitchen, one leg cocked slightly, arms tightly folded across her chest.
“You can have it all if it means I can get rid of you.”
She turned toward the front door. “I’m going for a walk.”
“You’re not supposed to go for a walk. We’re supposed to be in the house for 14 days to make sure we don’t expose anyone else and this thing doesn’t keep spreading.” He watched her walk down the hallway toward the front door, raising his voice. “If someone in the media finds out we’re going for walks, they’ll smell blood in the water and be all over it. It could look bad for Matt.”
Snatching her coat off the hanger by the door she kept her back to him. “I can go for a walk.” She’d clenched her teeth so hard an ache shot up through her jawline. “I’ll stay six feet away from anyone I see, okay? I’ll even wear a hat and sunglasses, so I don’t ruin the career of the illustrious Sen. Matthew Grant.”
She snatched a sunhat from the front closet and her sunglasses off the table by the door.
“What happened to you, Maddie?” Liam called after her. “How did you become such a bitter person?”
Maddie’s muscles tightened again at his words. She was tired of arguing with him but there was no way she was letting this one slide.
She walked quickly back to the living room, eyes flashing.
“I’m sorry? How did I become so bitter? Maybe you should be asking how you became so distant. Maybe you should be asking how you became so preoccupied with your career and your reputation and the reputation of your stupid older brother that you let your marriage fall apart. Maybe you should ask yourself what it has been like for your wife to sit here at home alone while you’re out flitting around with sexy little reporters and congressional staffers and maybe —”
Liam scoffed. “Oh please. That’s such crap. I did not let this marriage fall apart. You are the one who shredded it, Maddie. And I invited you to those events plenty of times. You just wanted to sit here with your computer and your Twitter followers. You could have cared less about what was going on in my life and my career. You haven’t cared for a long time.”
Maddie shook her head and pivoted, walking briskly from the room and flinging open the front door. She made sure to slam it hard behind her as she walked through.
Her mind raced as she took the front steps two at a time and made her way down the sidewalk past the neighbors’ houses.
Why would she want to attend events where she merely stood in the corner while Liam kissed the butt of every politician in the room? Then there was the way he laid his hands on the backs of female staffers as he talked to them, winking before he walked away.
Yes, he winked at them.
Always that stupid, fake wink that spoke volumes about his relationship with those women when Maddie wasn’t around. She couldn’t remember him ever winking at her; not in the 15 years they’d known each other and not in the ten they’d been married.
Now she was trapped in her house, her safe haven, for the next 14 days with the man who had become a stranger to her because he had kept meeting with politicians despite the warnings about the spread of a weird virus. Oh, and, of course, he had also kept meeting with the media. The stupid, pain in the butt, fearmongering, obnoxious, and arrogant media, which, for Liam, mainly meant that red-headed reporter from the local NBC affiliate.
Cute, shapely, long red curls hanging down to her small, firm bottom.
“Oh, Liam, you’re always so good at keeping me in the loop,” she cooed through the speaker on his phone one day.
Maddie had walked by his office on her way to the kitchen. She rolled her eyes at Liam’s response.
“No problem, Wendy. You’ve always been good to us. I’m glad to give you the scoop.”
The tender timbre of Liam’s voice when he spoke to Wendy was a tone Maddie hadn’t heard him use toward her in years. In truth, Liam hadn’t cared about Maddie for a very long time. He was never interested in her writing or her accomplishments. Last year he had barely looked up from his paperwork when she told him she’d surpassed her personal goal for eBook sales.
Tap. Tap. Tap.
His pen bumped against his teeth repeatedly as he looked through a stack of papers.
“Hmm? Oh, that’s great, hon’.”
Maddie had stared at that pen on that bottom lip for several moments, remembering how those lips used to press against hers, but hadn’t for months now, at least for no longer than a quick peck on his way out the door anyhow.
“Yeah. I thought so,” she said softly, knowing he really didn’t care.
He flipped another page of the packet, his eyebrows furrowed. “That’s a big thing for a self-published author, right?”
Annoyance hit her square in the chest. His use of the words “self-published,” struck her as patronizing.
She’d walked away, leaving him to continue his work.
As she’d stood across from him a few moments ago while he was shouting at her, veins popping up along the top of his forehead and along his neck, she realized just how sick of it all she was.
How sick of him she was.
Sick of all the times she’d felt rejected and pushed aside.
Sick of all the times she’d felt like she was competing with television cameras and self-serving, power-hungry politicians.
Sick of the way he’d made it clear she wasn’t a priority to him anymore.
When he’d told her he had the virus, he hadn’t even expressed concern for her. So far, he hadn’t had even a sniffle, but she knew it could get worse and she knew she could be next.
All he’d done the last two days was rant about how ridiculous all this quarantining and so-called “social distancing” was and how it would make his job more difficult since he’d have to work from home.
What about her and how it would affect her? As soon as he’d announced he’d be working from home for the next two weeks, maybe even longer, all her quiet writing time had evaporated.
She didn’t have a private office like he did since he’d never finished transforming that spare room upstairs into her writing space like he’d promised. Instead he had filled it with political documents and books.
Not being able to meet with their lawyers to finalize the divorce papers was like the poisoned apple on the cake.
She wished she had taken her friend Andrea up on her offer to stay at her apartment during the quarantine.
“I’m single, no children, and no elderly parents to catch it if you do get it so let’s be stuck here together,” Andrea told her over the phone three days ago. “It’s supposed to be a mild virus for 80 percent of the population anyhow. Too many people are acting like it’s the end of the world. If it is, we can make milkshakes, pop some popcorn, and watch it burn. Or we can watch a couple Brad Pitt movies. Either way, you won’t have to be stuck in the house with that jerk.”
“Make it a few Hugh Jackman movies and I may take you up on that offer,” Maddie responded. “But, seriously, all my paperwork for the book is here. Plus, I’m sure Liam will be locked in his office the whole time anyhow.”
But her brooding, distasteful, self-important, soon-to-be ex-husband hadn’t locked himself in his office.
He’d been practically been crawling up the walls since his boss and older brother, U.S. Senator Matthew Grant, had ordered him into quarantine after he tested positive for the virus. He spent his days pacing the floor like a caged animal. Why didn’t he just go in his office and leave her alone already?
She needed a very long break from him, but this short walk in the cool spring air would have to do. She’d have to return to the house eventually. But for now, she intended to enjoy the warm sun on her face, the newly sprouting buds on the trees around her, and the chirps of the birds.
The front door crashed closed, rattling the hinges.
Liam stared after his wife, jaw tight, heart pounding from the adrenaline.
Holy heck that woman is so . . . he struggled for the word as he turned and walked toward the small flight of stairs that led to his office.
That’s what she was, or what she had become anyhow.
None of those attributes were how he would have described her when they’d been dating or when they had married 10 years ago, but now he couldn’t think of anything positive to say about her.
He tossed his hands in the air in as he walked into the office and flopped back into the leather chair behind the desk, reaching for his phone. Frustration and anger tightened around him like a straight jacket.
He didn’t want to think about her anymore.
He had other things he needed to focus on.
Work for one thing.
He still had a press release to work on with John. It would update the media on restrictions that had been placed in Matt’s district to try to reduce the spread of the virus. Liam wasn’t even sure why so many restrictions were being put in place, but it wasn’t his job to understand how a virus traveled. He left that up to scientists and medical professionals. His job was to make his older brother Matt look good and that’s what he was going to do.
He reached John’s voicemail.
“John, hey, it’s Liam. Give me a call when you get this. Let me know the latest. I’ve started the release and need to fill in the details. You’ve got my number.”
He swiped the end button and set the phone face down on the desk, pushing his hands back through his hair as he leaned back against the chair.
He was going stir crazy in this house. Maybe he needed to take a walk like Maddie, or a run. A run would sweat out the virus, which he wasn’t sure he even had, even though he had told Maddie he had already been diagnosed. Doing some exercise would also help him focus on something other than the tension between him and his soon-to-be ex-wife.
That definitely sounded weird. But it was needed. He and Maddie hadn’t been connecting for years. It was time to move on; shake the dust off his feet, so to speak.
While he’d told Maddie he had the virus, the truth was that his first test had been inconclusive. He was waiting for a call from the doctor’s office for the results of a second test.
Telling her the test had been positive had been the only way to shut her up when she’d been harping on him about being missing the meeting with their attorneys to finalize the alimony numbers.
“I have the virus, okay?!” he’d yelled, tossing his arms out to his side. “I’m in quarantine for 14 days and the doctor said you’re stuck here with me because you’ve been exposed already. We have to put up with each other for two weeks, maybe longer, so maybe you can just get off my back for once and shut up.”
Her annoyance bubbled into pure fury. “Are you serious?!” She’d tossed her notepad and pen across the room at him, missing him by a couple of inches. “Well, that’s just great! I am so looking forward to getting sick with you.”
“I don’t even have any symptoms,” he’d shouted at her back as she walked toward her bedroom. “You probably won’t get any either so don’t worry about it. But, hey, thanks for being concerned about me.”
Even though the tests had been preliminary, there was no denying he’d been exposed to the virus. The ambassador from Italy had announced three days ago he’d tested positive. Liam had been at a meeting with the ambassador the previous week. They had shaken hands and even sat next to each other at dinner. Symptoms or not, he knew there was little chance he wouldn’t develop it. That meant he hadn’t lied to Maddie. Not really.
The doctor had told him that based on his age and overall good health, it was more likely that his case would be mild if he did develop symptoms, but they couldn’t take a chance he’d spread it to others who were more vulnerable, so he had been sent home and told to self-quarantine.
He knew it wouldn’t have looked good for Matt if he’d tested positive and kept going to work, possibly exposing others.
He’d cursed under his breath all the way home, wearing a mask on the subway, everyone around him scowling at him like he’d released a biological weapon in their midst.
He spun his phone around on top of the desk and then shoved it away from him and slapped the desk in frustration. He couldn’t just sit around waiting to get sick. He had to do something to occupy his mind until John or Matt called him back. The only communication he’d had from his brother in two days had been a quick text: Press is blowing up. Going into quarantine. Be in touch.
He couldn’t focus on work anyhow.
His mind raced with the events of the last few days.
Being in the same house with Maddie for longer than a couple of hours wasn’t helping.
Honestly, he’d been avoiding coming home for months, even before they’d agreed to the divorce. The fact he couldn’t avoid being in this Hoosier with her now drove him crazy.
He glanced through the partially open door to the spare room across the hall. He knew he should finish clearing the room out. He would have to anyhow when he officially moved in a couple of weeks to the apartment he’d rented on the other side of the city.
He’d agreed to give Maddie the house in the divorce. He didn’t need it. It was too big for just him and he didn’t have plans on getting into another relationship anytime soon. Honestly, he was looking forward to some solitude after years of walking on eggshells around the woman he had once thought he’d spend the rest of his life with.
He pushed himself to a standing position with a groan, heading into the spare room. Boxes cluttered the floor and he started opening them, tossing papers into a trash bag he’d started filling the week before. Old speeches, stained copies of his resumes, press releases from his brother’s campaign. He tossed them all. They weren’t needed anymore.
The last box in the stack by the window was covered in a layer of dust and he blew it off as he picked it up, coughing and shaking his head. What had he been thinking blowing the dust all over? Like he needed dust in his lungs if he had a virus growing in there too. He flipped the lid off the box and looked inside. Old bills, bank statements from six years ago, birthday cards from his family, and a stack of envelopes tied together with twine. He tossed the statements and bills in the trash bag and flipped through the birthday cards. He ended up tossing them too. He appreciated them but he couldn’t keep everything.
He frowned at the letters. What were these and why were they hidden in this box? He worked the twine loose and one fell off the top to the floor. He reached down and picked it up, looking for a name on the front. Finding none he slid out the letter he found inside.
I won’t lie, I feel so weird writing this letter, but I haven’t been able to think about anything but you all week. I really enjoyed our night together, especially our dance in the courtyard outside the restaurant. I didn’t notice before that moment how blue your eyes are or that scar at the edge of your jawline. I hope we can meet again soon, and you can tell me how you got it.
Classes are almost done for the semester. I have decided to stick it out with the communications major, though I’m still not sure what I want to do with it. I’ll be spending my summer break at home, probably working at the ice cream stand again. What will you be doing this summer? I hope you’ll write me back and let me know.
P.S. Is sincerely too cold of a way to sign a letter to a person you were kissing only a couple of days ago?
P.P.S. I fall asleep every night thinking about that kiss.
Liam slid the letter back into the envelope and shook his head. Those words had been written a lifetime ago. When was the last time Maddie had thought of him in that way? He didn’t even know, but he knew it had been a long time since he’d thought of her that way. He stared at the envelope, remembering that night in the courtyard, his arms around her waist as they swayed, her honey-brown hair cascading down her back, the way she’d laid her head against his shoulder and he’d breathed in the citrus smell of her shampoo.
The rest of the world faded away and even though a few other people were also dancing to the impromptu concert a couple of street performers were putting on, it was as if they were the only people in the courtyard. Her skin was so soft, her lips even softer when he’d touched her under her chin, and she’d looked up at him and he’d leaned down to kiss her.
He’d wanted that kiss to last forever. It had only ended because the sky had abruptly opened up and sent them running to his car, laughing and soaked when they’d climbed inside. They’d resumed the kiss for several passionate moments, steaming up the windows, and then he’d driven her back to her dorm room, his body aching to hold her again as he watched her walk inside.
He sat on the floor by the window, crumpling the letter in his hand and tossing it across the room.
He opened another box.
He refused to look at old photos and let any more memories twist his already jumbled thoughts. That’s all they were — memories of what used to be, not the reality of what was now. The people in these letters and photos were ghosts. They were ghosts of who he and Maddie used to be. They weren’t who they had become, who they were now; two people who had once loved each other, but no longer did.
He snatched up one of the albums and started to toss it toward the garbage bag. It wasn’t like Maddie would miss them. She never even came into this room. There had been a thick layer of dust on this box just like the one with the letters.
A photo slid out of the album as he started to toss it and skidded across the floor, face up. He glanced at it as he reached down to pick it up. A smiling Maddie on the beach, her hair flowing in soft waves down her back, her head tipped back, her bare throat exposed.
The memory came against his will.
It was their first trip together.
Sophomore year of college.
On the beach.
“Should I pose like this?” Maddie’s hand was on her hip, one leg pushed out slightly from the other, knee bent. She tipped her head back and laughed, the sunlight dancing across her curls. He snapped the shutter.
“Yep,” he’d said, completely under her spell. “Just like that.”
She’d laughed at him, playfully slapping her hand across his upper arm.
“You did not take that photo! I looked like such a goofball! You better delete that.”
He grinned and pulled her in for a kiss. “Nope. That one is my favorite so far. I’ll keep it forever and never forget the way you smiled at me in the sun on this gorgeous spring day on this gorgeous beach.”
Her smile had faded into a more serious expression and then she’d wrapped her hand behind his neck, pulling his head down. She had pressed her mouth to his, tugging gently at his bottom lip when she’d pulled back several steamy moments later. That kiss had almost made him explode with desire.
He tipped his head back, closing his eyes as he remembered that kiss. It had been an amazing, mind-blowing kiss. “One for the record books,” he liked to tell her for years afterward.
God, she had been beautiful that weekend. He’d been head over heels in love wih her, though he knew part of it had been his libido speaking. He’d wanted to spend the whole weekend with her in bed, but he knew she’d have none of it.
She hadn’t been raised that way. For her, sex was something had only after the marriage vows had been said. He’d sighed and rolled his eyes when she’d first told him but gradually, he’d accepted it, remembering his own upbringing and how his parents had urged the same for him. Maddie was worth waiting for he’d decided, and he’d compromised with long walks and extended make-out sessions on the beach before bidding her a good night outside her own hotel room.
He’d been right. Maddie had been worth waiting for. They had spent two years dating getting to know each other beyond a physical connection and on their wedding night they’d casted aside any physical expectations, instead simply enjoying each touch, each kiss, each rush of pleasure at just being able to be together.
Liam leaned his head forward, opening his eyes to look at the photo again. He could barely remember the last time he’d made love to Maddie. Sure, they’d had sex once or twice in the last year, but it had been rushed, distant, cold even. It had been for their individual physical needs and nothing more. He knew that and hated it. He clutched at his hair and flicked the photo across the room.
He hated who he had become, that it had affected his marriage more than he ever thought it would. He and Maddie had been so young when they’d married, so full of naïve idealism. They were going to change the world together. They’d buy a home in the suburbs, raise two children (a boy and a girl, of course), both have successful careers in communications, and take amazing family trips to Europe every summer. That’s what they told themselves anyhow.
But now, they were barely talking. They’d never had any children. Maddie had had two early miscarriages, and another one at almost 32 weeks. They’d taken a break after the last miscarriage, deciding they’d talk about trying again when life settled down. That had been four years ago, and life had never settled down.
Matt had been elected as a U.S. Senator almost six years ago and he had hired Liam as his press secretary, meaning Liam and Maddie had moved from Ohio to Washington, D.C. and Liam had started spending more time in the city and less time at home in the suburbs with Maddie. That fractured time together had eventually led to a fractured marriage that neither of them knew how to repair. Neither one had wanted to try marriage counseling either, both believing they could fix it all on their own. A marriage was hard to fix when both people thought they were right and the other person was wrong, though.
Liam yawned and pushed himself up from the hard floor, staggering toward the bed that had been shoved to the other side of the room, in the middle of the boxes and bookcases. It was the bed he’d been sleeping in since Maddie had told him she wanted a divorce six months ago.
He was exhausted and knew the walk down memory lane wasn’t helping to calm his jumbled thoughts. He flopped down on top of the covers on his back when he reached the bed, closing his eyes, not even bothering to undress.
Maybe I should stay awake until Maddie gets back, he thought as sleep started to overtake him. But he couldn’t fight the exhaustion any longer. Chaotic thoughts of his future divorce and stressful job swirled together with dreams of the way his life with Maddie used to be.